September 16, 2007
It's Sunday night, and I have officially been through my first week as an Eastern Eagle. It has been tough, tiring, fun and exciting. I have experienced one crazy range of highs and lows. There were times when I was biting my lip trying not to cry and other times when I was laughing so hard that it hurt.
The first few days were really hard for me. I was really sad after leaving my family and boyfriend, but I had to refocus myself and get through my daily regimen of workouts (because of NCAA regulations the coaching staff cannot work with us, so the team gets together on its own to work out). They were so hard. I thought I was in pretty good shape coming in, but after the first couple workouts I really began to doubt myself. At the start of school our whole team has to pass three individual fitness tests that are a real challenge. I started to wonder how I was ever going to be able to pass them. I quickly learned, though, that doubting myself was a big mistake. I talked to my mom and dad and my boyfriend, Chase, a lot about my struggles and lack of confidence. They all told me that I had to maintain a positive attitude and believe that I could do anything that I set my mind to. So I began to redirect my doubts and anxiety about the upcoming tests. Now I am putting all of my energy into preparing for these tests, because I know that proper preparation and a positive outlook will get me where I want to go. This whole situation also helped me to understand just how vital my family and friends are to me. Without their encouragement and positive reinforcement, who knows what kind of mindset I would have. I was really down and they all helped to pick me back up.
This entire week the team has been all about getting ready for those fitness tests, so once the weekend rolled around we all definitely wanted to relax a little bit. On Friday night a few of us went over to (Katy) Baker's apartment to hang out and play some games. On game nights, Catch Phrase is a MUST! So we played that along with a few other games and really just had a great time. It felt so good to be able to relax! Having such a good time with my teammates made me feel like I was actually beginning to settle in to my new life. I am beginning to figure out though, that you can never relax for too long. Way too soon, it was time to get up for our 9:30 a.m. conditioning. It wasn't too tough, but still felt like another step in the right direction in order to get ready for the start of the season.